The Catalyst

I didn't come to this place on my own. I was too afraid to. I was content in my inertia, enjoying my days, my home, the company I keep. Something had to happen to push me out of my orbit. I didn't think it was the right time. Honestly, I didn't think there would ever be a right time, but once my trajectory was irreparably altered, I had a choice to make.

I could marinate in my fear, or I could kiss my fear on the forehead, whisper It's going to be ok, and rise to the challenge.

Challenge accepted.

What made me ready to take it on now? Support. Confidence. Faith.
I am truly blessed to have the support of the most kind, amazing, loving, nurturing, reassuring village. The voices of whom keep me focused on serving myself well. When I see myself through their eyes, I find my confidence. They love me because I am worthy of their love. I have learned to believe in myself because they believe in me. They have taught me that unconditional love is not just for parents and children. I am worthy, and I deserve my own love. I have also learned over the span of my life that even in the face of tragedy, everything turns out okay. I believe that I am ok, even if I am hurting right now. I have faith that I will be stronger, more resilient, and more flexible for having endured life's difficulties. I have faith that I will be dynamic, radiant and full of love.

Without the Catalyst, my life would have been fine- perhaps inert, but fine. But with the Catalyst, my life is going to be incredible. The Catalyst has taught me to take stock of my resources, to evaluate my needs and desires, to ask for what I want, to experience my life with authenticity, to radiate compassion- outward and inward. The Catalyst has shaken me out of complacency, taken me out of my comfort zone, and pushed me into an expansion of cosmic proportions.

A Supernova of the Spirit.

And for that I am eternally grateful.